I moved to stay with my sister where I had so much freedom to do whatever I wanted. I met friends who went out for parties, drinking and smoking. Therefore in order to fit in, I ended up doing the same things. I would leave home Friday and come back Sunday. I was always drunk on a daily basis and it was these friends who gave me money to sustain my addictions and partying. It was so bad that when the money they gave me was not enough, I would sell my clothes.
After I got a job, I would ask for advances from work in order to party so I was always in debts and at the end of the month I would receive nothing for my salary. It was at a party that I met the father of my first child. I would also drink and smoke even when I was pregnant. After I had my child, it was very difficult to make ends meet so my sister had to be the one supporting us.
I left my child with my family to continue the life of partying, smoking and drinking. Later, I met the father of my second child. I still continued drinking and smoking even in that condition. As a result, I delivered a pre-mature baby. This was the worst moment of my life because I wanted nothing to do with the baby.
I became so depressed that I developed suicidal thoughts. I had no love towards my child because his father was very abusive towards me to the extent that he hit me on the head with a bottle of beer and also stabbed me with a knife. I was living in constant fear for my life but at the end of the day I would always go back to him.
I was invited to church after attending a special work in Bontleng. I was fed up of being a failure in my life and using wrong things to fill the emptiness I had. I received teachings on how I could transform my life. I participated in the chain of prayers on Fridays for my deliverance, Wednesdays to invest in my spiritual life and Saturdays for the youth meeting.
Today I left all wrongdoing; I am free from all addictions. I cut all ties with the friends I used to have. I am a loving mother towards my children and I am able to support them. I received the Holy Spirit and I am serving God completely with my life.